My dear Leon began to be more and busier these days and so did I, because some responses from overseas universities were coming one by one. We were so excited as if the bright of hope was totally re-lighted up. Every morning we were so looking forward to hear anything from them whatever good or bad, but nothing happened. We were frustrated and even kinda no confidence anymore. And then, I was getting endlessly decadent. Doing nothing seemed to become all in my life. Even sometimes I hated watching Leon being busy with his totally hopeless works. Did it make sense to you? That was the regular question I used to ask to him. I knew I was a terrible person at that time. Even I began to scare of my perverted behavior.
Human beings are indeed dangerous and complicated animals. Maybe we were completely confused what the hell we wanted at the very start of the life. Someone chose one lifestyle wallowing in the bottom of this society while someone, instead, risked his or her life to aim at and catch up with others who have stood in the so highlevel social status. I usually tried to ask myself who was living more tired? Which group in this world was living more easily as making much less money? Even, what way to living did I have to pick to make me and even my entire family happy? Here, please be careful on the words I used’ have to’, rather than’ want to’. Why did I write this? Life is not as easy as we suppose to be. Life is much less the tool or the purpose that we do what we want to do only while giving up what we don’t want to. Life is the test we have to try endlessly until we get to know what is best for us. Life is why we have to spend our entire life to be with.
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