It’d been 10 days since I came back from Xiamen. I was supposed to come tomorrow but things suddenly happened out of our mind, so we had to back in advanced. It was a special ‘6-day’s holiday’ for us, because someone just left us, and someone will come to this world, which happened in the same family. Although I had sensed the feeling one family member passed away before, I still feel sad. I know there is nothing I can say to comfort my families to make them feel better. Only thing I have to do is to bless and to pray. At the funeral of our grandfather, I took hold of Leon’s hands to pray for him. We were all sure he got to be so well and happy in that world, he was not gone, he just wanna make himself happier than he did in here. We are no need to worry about him. Dear God, please let all your dear sons live beneath your love and your blessing, please never let any friends and families leave us anymore. In the same family, a person was gone while a people will come. Our sister is gonna have a baby in this month. We hope this cute bub will bring us luck and happiness to let us escape this shadow of the death.
It’d been 10 days here in Beijing. I am so uncomfortable with the dry weather, and got fever score in full of mouth. Drinking much water seems not work out anymore. Everything was as if not ready enough for me. I supposed having a good rest from Longyan for National Day Holiday trip before planning to write something in Leon’s lab. I supposed drawing out much time to be with Leon to buy some cute stuff I like and bring them back to go home. I supposed to play badminton some times in holiday for those one-month-increased fats. I supposed to walk by seaside with Leon again to recall what we were at that time. I supposed to make a scheme ofhow to say goodbye to those guys whom I love and miss at all times. I supposed to make a big meal for Wangcai to support him against hungry which he will have in the following days. I supposed to give Leon a warmest hug in airport, telling him I will be right back. I supposed to be packing those heavy luggage lest Leon should be so tired when he comes...Yet, no supposing could give us a family’s life back and there are much more supposing in our life in which we would totally not wait for their coming. Everything is so soon, and so beyond from us to accept. But we have to, because it’s a real world. I supposed marriage, I supposed calling my dear family out, I supposed to have babies someday, I supposed everything would be fine, I supposed everything would not be that cruel…
Leon was just back to Xiamen for his graduation thing. Although I didn’t want him to leave anymore, I knew he will never be away from me in the near future. I miss him, I love him.
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