You are my power I strive it for 2006-11-05 18:57

I couldn’t stop my all works these days, because that day I have been waiting for will be here quite soon. But I am not ready enough to get this next foot. Looking back on my way, I did paid my whole efforts on our dream, which kept me just a little more tired. Yesterday night I rebrowsed that homepage to hope to get new information for my further study. It was so sudden that I saw a regulation for our international students which had been out of my preparations; I became so anger, frustrated and self-pity, just like being thrown into a world of darkness. I feared it was too late to submit my papers to that school. Do you think a situation you are much scared when you are confident to prepare something carefully and diligently, your dream abandon you and is suddenly fallen into an abyss by certain terrible twists of fate, or the result is completely contrary with what you originally expected in the end? That’s so horrible to me, which even could make me absolutely hopeless. Moreover, I wrote a letter to that school to ask some questions, and also wish them to reply as soon as possible. However, till then, I am still in anxiety, looking forward their answers. Sometimes I always think that in case of losing my all chances to go with my Leonidas, would I become a powerless, helpless burden on everyone around me? I intended to give him a call to pour out my worries in that night but he was tied up with his works. My heart was as cold as the night outside, so bitter cold just like breaking my wings, and never filed into sky. Lying in the bed, and gazing my mobile expecting a warm message from him. Just as I anticipated, later, words were showing on my phone: "babe, I know it is so hard to you to do these without me, but all our doings are worthy, for our future, right? Good sleep my babe, blow you a kiss. Never worried, because you have me by your side forever!" A warm was flowing through my eyes and then into my heart. Having his care and encouragement, I would never be afraid anymore. I miss you Leonidas, I need your help. You are my power I strive it for...