Welcome my big day! 2006-12-31 21:54

My mom Yang and dad Lei and I spent a wonderful night in the last day of 2006. Today was another big day because I have learnt how to make Nian-gao from Lei dad. What’s an amazing experience? That's so tasty when enjoying made by myself. After leaving there I gave a call to Leonidas to tell him how much happy I was today, not because of those yummies, it's the first time Lei dad said ' you are so my daughter' when tasting New Year’s cake he always loves. At that moment I knew what it meant to me. So, my all, dear friends, I miss you all guys! Happy New Year! Happy Birthday to my Sylvia!

What can make me feel better? 2006-12-29 17:25

Just got a wonderful greeting from Dennis, and he said he and his friends had already gotten a good job in charity, where they will share the new year’s gifts like candies or something with those kids. That’s really a great new. I got a cold recently, so terrible. Even I don’t wanna talk with others at all because of my lost voice. My big day is nearly coming, but I couldn’t do anything to celebrate. Maybe now such the quiet atmosphere, instead of the rumpus, can make me much better. Maybe I am growing up or whatever, who knows. A 25-year girl, for me, doesn’t mean to be the one who can do anything whatever right or wrong anymore, but mean to be a right decisionmaker on what exactly I should do so that I can gain huge benefits from it as much as possible. No longer can happiness be defined on how much happy I am with others, but how much better I will be, now and forever.

Happy New Year 2006-12-26 11:46

I haven't updated my space for a while. First talk about these days, Amoy Sea came here to be with his girlfriend during weekend. Yesterday I traded them hot-pot at lunch and obviously he was so 'excited' to enjoy it. (aha, you guys know why I say excited with quotation marks.) X'mas seemed less lively than I thought here. Everything was still normal and peaceful. After all it doesn't belong to our traditional holiday. Oh, I almost forgot Liujing have already come back and we decided to hold a party with my all closest friends for my birthday, but my Leonidas wouldn't be joining us, what a shame. Here, anyway, you guys, Happy New Year!

Hoping the next 2006-12-14 22:31

I am way too exhausted so far. Only God could understand what I did. In the morning I just finished my third lesson of driving. You know that is my most tough feeling I have ever had before. I supposed to be so easy to me to make everything possible on driving. But I was wrong. Its hardness on skills was far beyond what I thought. I wanna quit, but I can’t, because I have still been holding a desire that at that day I can drive to pick Leonidas up to go back home in person. Just finished my video stuff. Just finished recom letter stuff. Just finished material stuff. Just finished the whole thing I should do. Just hoping what will be happening next after being ready to be my real Sylvia.

All is no more than over beginning 2006-12-10 21:23

There are problems with my computer
so that I couldn’t stay here so long time.
Overall nothing had happened recently.
Still be busy with playing piano to ready for exams.
Still be too addicted in music to forget something.
As if got back that feeling I have ever had years ago.
Still don’t wanna study, because it is so boring.
Still don’t wanna make time to meet somebody.
Still don’t know when I fall in love with this sense of being alone.
All is no more than over beginning.

What else should they do next? 2006-12-07 18:59

I have been keeping an idea these days, which is about the relationship between art and government. Yesterday I try to write the short essay about this topic, but didn’t think out the convictive points to support my view. Clearly, we all have to be restricted by government in whichever we do, that might be, in my opinion, certain restriction or responsibility to our society, because not all individuals, like scientists, or doctors, could have the huge obligation to save the whole community. Each occupation totally has their own business and plays the completely different roles in the world. That is, they have kinds of ways to contribute to human being. When talking about art, however, things would totally be different. Of course, artists have also to create good numbers of works to where they live. Yet, here, we must to admit one thing: art is about feeling, both good and bad ones. Art can’t merely be measured by what is wrong and what is right; instead, it will control or even restrict the feelings of artists. Whichever they express themselves bad and good, they could completely be acceptable among people. Art after all belongs to the field of spirit, as long as it is quite true, who care which is right or wrong? Although in certain group of individuals" mind, art or artists is far less important that those who spent their entire life to human beings, at least it lets us see the world in new and different ways compared with other fields, and gives us pleasure and enjoyment. That’s enough, to me. Here everyone can try to imagine how could be if all things that artists have created would one by one be restricted by government. Don’t you think it is their contribution and responsibility for our society? If not, can I ask one question, what else should they do next?

New things 2006-12-04 18:43

I fear that everything around me become habitual so that it's so hard to me to quit go back that place where I was. Like piano playing, for example, I used to have one regular fingering way when I was playing a piano piece. Although I at that time knew it might be less available for playing well, it’s not possible to set a new one. Obviously, this is the habit. Just now I played a work composed by Mendelssohn, a famous composer from Germany, in which a small part of first movement on fingering method was difficult. And then I still used old way but it didn't work. Thus I had to try to find others new. You know I never realized that was not as easy as I thought. My fingers and mind were always affected by the former regular. So to me, accepting a new thing is not much easy as merely on music but on my life.

Lovesickness something 2006-12-03 19:55

So excited because my first class of learning drive will be arriving tomorrow. Who will be my teacher and how well things will be tomorrow? I am imagining again and again.

Dad is on his way to London, maybe at this time he is talking happily with his friends how excited the trip would be or how busy when arrived there, whatever, I guess. Honestly, I miss him so much even though it hasn’t been so long time since goodbye. Either does mom. She is looking the British map to try to find those places my dad will probably visit on it. You know, I am usually touched by the sweet relationship between them. They care about each other whenever and wherever she or he go. I remembered dad once got a terrible fever after mom went to Shanhai. At that time I really didn’t know how I could do for him to recover his health. Dad joked to me:" never mind daughter, it might be the lovesickness something. Don’t worry it will pass as long as your mom come back." At then, I realized he was never so intense to look forward mom to go back as did he before. Will we be like that in future?

Life is not funny 2006-12-02 21:20

Dad will go to London tomorrow. Wish him have a nice trip. You know I ever envied him going to everywhere whenever he wanted. When can I be like that? Just now dad talked to me for a second. He said that he was still worrying about my go-abroad stuff and that I am not independent enough to accept something willingly. Honestly, I felt ashamed of myself because there are so many things my parents have always to concern and even worry about me. I know I used to refuse to grow up years ago, but now I have to admit to be an adult. Life seems not as interesting as in my mind. Yeah, absolutely not funny.

How can I keep from singing? 2006-12-01 19:57

My life flows on in endless song. Above earth’s lamentation, I hear the sweet though far off hymn. That hails a new creation: Through all the tumult and the strife. I hear the music ringing. It finds an echo in my soul. How can I keep from singing?

What though my joys and comforts die? The Lord my Savior lives. What though the darkness gather round! Songs in the night He gives. No storm can shake my inmost calm. While to that refuge clinging. Since Christ is Lord of Heaven and earth. How can I keep from singing?

I lift my eyes, the cloud grows thin. I see the blue above it. And day by day this pathway smoothes, since first I learned to love it. The peace of Christ makes fresh my heart, a fountain ever springing: All things are mine. How can I keep from singing? Lord, please tell me how I can keep my heart calm? To your world, I must be true. I am not happy. Please lead me out from darkness. Don’t let me stray from you.

It's time 2006-11-30 18:51

What do I want to write?
A little happy, a little sad.
Why? I have no idea.
It's time to change something.
It's time to decide something.
It's time to quit something.
It's time to keep something.
It's time to face something.
And, it's time to accept something.
I am still happy.
I am still excited for something.
'Cause there are things we have to do.
Without hesitation, never regret.

Hello, IELTS 2006-11-25 23:17

I walked on through the first step of my life today. Everything seemed to be on the right track by now. I went to have an IELTS class which was my first time I knew what it was. I supposed that it was easy to learn, but I was wrong. The British accents really made me dizzy and hardly distinguish some similar meanings in listening. You know, after taking the class, I felt that I much liked TOEFL that is the most beautiful voice in English, because I thought it have always been the most natural way to express and especially appreciated those American people who could speak with their native labionasals. However, compared with the TOEFL, I think IELTS is much inclined to be used in our daily life rather than kinds of academic researches. That’s why more and more students who are preparing to go abroad preferred IELTS. Well, that’s it, kinda curious but more excited.

Congratulation! Sylvia! 2006-11-22 15:05

"Congratulation! Sylvia! You’re so great!" after the traffic regulation exam, I called dad, mom and my Leonidas to let them know this good news. Finally, I passed this test with such the high score 99. I’m so happy. You know what, before test, I supposed that it was difficult to pass, because I remembered an uncle who lived downstairs had been failing exams for seven times even though he’d tried his best to brush up on it at then. Since I was a little girl, shadows that passing a sort of this exam was not much easier have been deeply in rooted in my mind. For that, I was always kinda unsure myself not having competence to complete this problem. However, things were totally different with what I first forecasted, and I began to be sure I could have been a genius. Guess what, I spent less than ten mins to finish the whole test without checking and then had no hesitation to hand it in. Till then, I just realized it was the easiest exam I’ve ever had before. Shadows never come back. I’m gonna be a driver right now. Whoa-whoo!

By the way, I collected some posters of classical music sheet yesterday, that's so fantastic. Share with me, see my album below.

Turtles love music as much as I do 2006-11-20 13:07

Mom bought a cute turtle yesterday, and changed a aquarium into a bigger one. Now we have three cute sonnies. Every morning I always remind myself feeding them and changing fresh water for their aquatic character. I heard from my brother that they are fond of napping under the opulent sunshine for enhancing the capability of absorption on calcic substances. So they are usually placed on the balcony where sunshine is so ample. I trade that smaller one with my special emotion; because he is used to stick his head out and glimpse at me that as if tells me:"hey, guy, I am so hungry, I need food." He seemed to be so interested in music. When I was playing piano, he was frequently so excited to try to stand up onto the aquarium and hear of what the sound came from. Aha, that’s so funny.

Just have done piano playing. Only one point I have been delighted that the feeling, passion, even certain impulsion I have ever had before were all popping up to my fingers whenplaying. Yeah, feelings back. You know I love this feeling fingers running between the white and black board back and forth like the wind. I love having this perfect moment around me forever. I love dancing into the magical music world to search where I am. For this moment, I never wanna betray my heart to re-accept those I am never unloved.

Never be injured 2006-11-17 18:03

It was a busy day but everything as if went great much than what I thought. I got up early in the morning to go to take my passport. There were so many people tied up with their business. I was never aware that going abroad is not much easier. I have to consider being with all my senses on what I must to do now and what I am going to do next by myself. To tell the truth, tough feeling would appear as things by trying to work hard go much far from what I expect, that can make me totally sink into disappear and might no longer cheer it up. I went back home for taking a break and then rushed to pick up my all certificates in haste. You see I usually asked myself if it was worthy to take my all effort. Now I totally got it that the concept of success for its own sake couldn’t be relied on whether you have gotten something you wanted, but that you are never regrettable, to the target you have been looking after, for paying your whole life whenever the result will be. Do you remember? I ever said: "our hearts are never injured in pursue of our dream."

On the way to aesthetic tempting 2006-11-16 17:01

The last class came to the end today and the following stop I will have to face is the permission exam in next week. To be honest, I have gotten a little more interests in learning it so far. Considering the practical training few days later, it’s necessary to remember each detail carefully. It’s terrific! I will be picking Leonidas up with my car on airport. Babe, do you know how exciting I am?

I changed the space’s module into a music style, does everyone like it? Of course I do, because it’s so matched with what I always go in for. Therefore I am now deciding to write something on music, and my musical life. You see, there are some pictures below with left side of my blog, in which that famous musician and composer is F.F. Chopin, whom I have been regarding as my saint. Well, go back to certain musical topic; I wanna talk something after watching a paper about "On the way to aesthetic tempting". That really makes sense. Here, music is nothing more than a succession of tones intended to express certain sentiments, or to arouse them in other, or to entertain somebody, whatever. Just as music is born through sentiment, in the manner it affects only sentiment, the heart is the actual target of music. Besides, words affect reasons, producing in its special ideas, which can, of course, then produce feeling again. But music affects the feeling directly. Yes, that’s why music is quite different from other subjects that only use logic to express think and judge. It was said that music didn’t need any logical mind. I think that might be quite incorrect. Music could be dated from the initial rational period, Baroque, in which music was played by numeric ratiocination rather than certain emotional traits, because music at that given time was a symbol of dolce vita in royal and noble court. No one took notice of what music was going to be.

I have a person who cares me 2006-11-15 16:35

I was counting that it has been fifteen days since I left XM from Leonidas. How fast time went by, it was as though just happened yesterday. With these few days passed I had done a lot I had to do, but seemed nothing had been changed, instead I had been altered by something long time before. As an usual, I insisted to have the class today in order to get the permission of taking an exam for sure. Leonidas was right. In my blog’s comment yesterday, he said: "You have to be much more careful toward the exam, because it isn’t a simple test in schools where I was ever interested in Math, Physics, and whatever that was not important for life. So never look it down. See, that’s my babe Leonidas, who is always considerate to take care of me and encourage me whenever I need, either on thought or on daily life, being afraid of something happened on me. I am the happiest girl, isn’t it?

By the way, I really wanna know something about how come such the stupid man could have existed on the earth. You see I do hate those who endlessly attempt to bother me, whenever and whoever, even though I have tried to go so far away from them as much as I could. What’s a big deal of a teacher! Do you think you have an enough handsome look to be able to cajole all girls falling in love with you? That’s so ridiculous! You never know what loving and being loved can be. Having so much money doesn’t mean having the entire world. You will be bound to deserve a punishment from heaven for your ugly deed one day if you will keep it going. I am watching it!

There is no greater blessing than love 2006-11-14 16:24

Today was the second day I went to learn that traffic regulation that I had already known the most before, because I used to be picked up home by dad or mom wherever I went. Most of the traffic signals on the road usually appeared in mind. With the start of the class, I completely concentrated on what the teacher thought, because mom told me before I was planning to learn drive:"It’s better than you review it after class if you would pay the more attention carefully in the class. Times as if went so slow. That teacher was still drawing some symbols on the blackboard in order to make sure we could understand clearly. Thus look at those guys, who almost fell down to sleep on the desk, and even snored for nap. So I supposed to get a tiny snooze but later I as though felt the teacher’s voice slowly went far from me and disappeared in the distant. Obviously, everyone sitting here were so bored to listen such the regulation. Thinking of following two days, I am so crazy about that. "Are we necessary to be all required to attend in person?" That’s really killing me. Few minutes passed, then I reached into my bag and decided to pull out a light reading for relax. What a perfect book, which includes so many writings about love, patience, trust and honor, which always gave me power to be confident to live, especially in such the situation where we have no anything, right and money, but love and trust each other. In connection with reality that I am living, I sometimes thought why the real life is so far away from those stories written in books? Doesn’t sweet life from novels or movies come into our real life? And will we be waiting for that day we might be so old to understand what today world works is? Lord knows how tough life would be in past, in that he’ll give you another gift that only belongs to you. Love your anything that you’ve gotten, love your every day of life, because you never know when they might end. You know I’m hoping one day, when I am too old to be unable to do anything, or at that moment I’m going to die, I have never been regrettable for all what I did, and just leaves me only one present: nothing in this world is more powerful than love.

To choose what you love, to love what you chose 2006-11-13 20:30

I’d never gotten up as so early as I did today in recent years, which was also the new experienceI"d never gone it through before. I got up at 6:30 am to go to Longquan driver school to study the traffic regulation. I was so drowsy that almost fall down to sleep on the road. It was so cold today, the most I couldn’t stand it that such the big classroom should haven’t fit out central heating, staying in that place without warm, just dog-ends and smog filled with all over the room, really made me awful. Traffic regulation seemed easier to learn than what I thought. But I still hope it wouldn’t be lasting for a long time in that I wanna learn how to drive as soon as possible. If so I’ll be able to be a real driver to go to see Leonidas back at that time. That’s so exciting, huh?

I’ve no idea how much bad things have been. Those guys around us have something wrong with their girlfriends. Even they didn’t understand what’s the hell matter with them at all. Do personalities really decide anything to go worse even no matter how well they were in the past or how much they loved each other ever? How come they couldn’t be more careful about what he or she thought? How come they ever loved each other very much but now changed to be no love soon? Is love a game that could be dropping whenever you want? Now I do agree with what Leonidas once said: "Never say I quit, that just only means you’re unable and hesitated to do for what you should. That’s not a love." God endowed you a soul to be with together to love and to be loved. What else is more precious than it was? Did you ever realize that all of your experience in your whole life made you not less valuable, but more valuable, not less able to love, but more able to love?

I will be a professional driver 2006-11-12 22:32

Just met Seasea at her dorm and had a wonderful dinner that made it by her. She said I was the first guy being invited and enjoyed to her dorm for supper since she moved out from her university. With stepping into the doorway, here is clean and cozy although seems sorta old. After having rest for a while, we began to be busy cooking for dinner. I couldn’t believe such the little girl, who had never done this housework before, could have made a wonderful meal by herself. Will anyone be getting more mature and independent if they are on the job already? I do wish to be a good worker to earn a huge sum of money as soon as possible for those who I love. When will that come true? Plus, I will be learning the traffic regulation tomorrow morning, wish me luck.

Serendipity 2006-11-12 09:31

Forrest Gump once said: "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what’re gonna get." Totally, yesterday was another day to me. Until now I haven't understood why such the hap happened on me. That's totally incredible. Things are here, I went to shopping mall with my mom to buy a pair of sneakers for my mother-to-be for her birthday. Friends all know I always feel so comfortable and cool wearing the logo of sneakers, SKECHERS. So I of course selected the one of this brand, sky-blue vamps with white solos, which could greatly be showing someone's lively feature when wear them matched to a suit of light-color jersey. As I decided to go for pay the bill, it was pity there might not be using credit card due to the system updating. Thus I returned to ask a counter boy for help. While I thought what gonna do, at this moment, an old man was pointing at my feet and kinda exciting: 'look at this girl, she is wearing our sneakers!' Other than was I a little more anger to his discourteous act, I did wonder why he was saying that. He let me turned back and introduced a man: 'he is coming from American, the president and founder of this logo SKECHERS.' 'What!' I began to be so astonished. He repeated what he just said again. 'Oh, God, I am seeing the soooooo big person, that's my most special occasion I've ever experienced before.' I pretended to be so calm, without any translators, to talk to him in English on how I felt while wearing shoes naturally and fluently. He became so amazing, and never thought Chinese girls were as intelligent to speak English as I did. Afterward, we shoot pictures together. Perhaps I have never seen such the scene since a little girl except onstage for piano playing. I sensed kinda unnatural facing so many passed-by customers, especially in front of numbers of cameras. You know just like super stars, as heroines and heroes of a movie, are presenting in a press conference to be focused and tracked by large numbers of reporters. After that, he asked me for my all contacts and gave me a pair of beautiful sneakers for free. I didn't know how to express my thankful heart except saying thank you again and again. I am the luckiest man, whom no one is so lucky as anymore in the world. Thanks God giving me the precious gift. Thanks all who should completely be thank-you.

My father Lei gave me a removable disk yesterday, 100G, which is so cool. Even I didn’t plan what was gonna do using it. MomYang liked that hiking shoes very much, and so did my father Lei who never thought how nice the stuff we bought every time were before.

Getting happier 2006-11-10 19:45

Till then, I’d realized things had happened better than I originally expected. In fact, I’ve been thinking of where I’ll go for my study and stay these days, which was so terrible that I couldn’t control myself when thought of that. Fortunately, I met Huping online, who’ve been my best friend from childhood. She cared of my recent situation, and of what my further aims are. I told her it was a tough feeling of being in this blackest of life after applying that college unsuccessfully. She encouraged me and led me to have a right plan and then carefully think of what programes are fit to me, and whether I’m totally confident to do what I want. I do make sure that’s my next plan. Only one matter I haven’t moved it out that until now I"m not ready to get a correct decision of where the hell I’ll go. Believe in me, everything is absolutely ready but my self-confidence. Therefore, I called the embassies of all countries I intend to go to consult certain information, papers, records, photos, etc. Anyway, I’ll never be stupid to suffer such the losses that it shouldn’t be lost like this anymore. Just now I mentioned it to dad and then contacted Leonidas to tell my next wants and got their agreement and praise. I’m getting happier, just a little... By the way, the sequel of that TV-show was so wonderful. They finally seized that criminal, Zhan Sir, who was the leader of sergeants. And they never thought he was the provocateur. Zhai Sir have already recovered and remarriaged with his ex-wife Xiuyun. Zhongyi couldn’t stop loving with Silong anymore, making sure whom his heart belongs to, no matter what the relationship they were and said sorry to Shasha to hope be friends. Gaojie was awakened by Zhang Sir from her memory-losing and re-together with him forever. The end.

To be continued... 2006-11-09 18:57

It looked things went on an upsurge of the whole story. Entong was killed in her home. At the beginning it assumed that it was a suicide because Zhang Sir said he wanna break up with her before she was so sad. Zhai Sir was shouted by one whom all sergeants haven't assumed to be involved in so far, and was sent to the hospital for salvage. What is out of their supposition is that Gaojie followed her aunt’s husbandto- be who is a cop to try to find where he was going to. Unluckily she lost his track and soon found his location by her wittiness. And then, she rushed to the crime sense when she heard a gun. However, she never thought that criminal might be Zhang Sir, because when she looked through window into that bothy to know what had happened, he was squatting beside Zhai Sir, looking around and then running out of the house immediately. Definitely, Gaojie was of course misunderstood by such the confused situation and had seen Zhang Sir as that criminal...To be continued...

Nearly done 2006-11-08 18:17

I have to make a decision at this time in front of such the situation. I dunno if I am right and getting more confused how much I will pay for can my dream be come true. You know sometimes I really envy those guys who have gotten pays they earned by themselves, although that can be less satisfying for them. Yet to me, just one who haven’t located where I am and will be even never unaware of how much more important it is to me. I really don’t wanna be like this. You know me right? I love having dreams in my life, but dreams can’t be dreams forever. I am not a daydreamer and never live on them. Be real Sylvia, say to myself done is very near whatever hopes are frail...

I love this show 2006-11-07 18:38

I really like teleplay called "Wu Dixian Feng", in which Tao Dayu, who is one of my favorite actors, acts a sergeant called Zhang Sir, dealing with cases of murder everyday with his careful and logical thought, and successfully uncover many cases. You know I have been crazy about these types of TV-show since I began to watch awhodunit "Sherlock Holmes", because I always admire their logical mind that I lack it off. They are brave, intelligent and rational without any self sentiments. Although there are kinda fictive and exaggerated on play, they have been all the time trying hard to work for the security of all of people, which constructs a comfortable environment for us to live. I certainly watch this TV programme everyday whenever busy with something. Today this show went on to almost end. Obviously Zhang Sir has been mad at his ex-wife all the time though divorced owing to some misunderstandings. You know I sometimes wish that it would be perfect if this is a entire movie instead of a serial, which never have me guess what is going on next when looking the current gut anymore. It’s a childish idea, huh?

The losing life 2006-11-06 21:59

I am so exhausted, seem as if lose bearings of life. Such the losing world. Surely ,my dream left me alone. Now, I am standing at this point, looking for the meaning of life. Where am I? What else can I do? And what can I change? Where should I go on or stay here waiting for someone to help me? I have exerted to do what I should do. But why do I be tricked by fate? God, I love you, please give me a right way, please tell me who I am, please promise me fate never betray me. I know you are kind, you are caritative. Who can help me to guide me leave the darkness out? Am I hopeless? Am I a burden? Am I excellent enough in front of all problems without those who I need to? I wanna be independent, but I can’t. I am just a girl, who has no strength to withstand anything by my own. I don’t mean I am going to be dependent. Just wanna stay without thinking...

You are my power I strive it for 2006-11-05 18:57

I couldn’t stop my all works these days, because that day I have been waiting for will be here quite soon. But I am not ready enough to get this next foot. Looking back on my way, I did paid my whole efforts on our dream, which kept me just a little more tired. Yesterday night I rebrowsed that homepage to hope to get new information for my further study. It was so sudden that I saw a regulation for our international students which had been out of my preparations; I became so anger, frustrated and self-pity, just like being thrown into a world of darkness. I feared it was too late to submit my papers to that school. Do you think a situation you are much scared when you are confident to prepare something carefully and diligently, your dream abandon you and is suddenly fallen into an abyss by certain terrible twists of fate, or the result is completely contrary with what you originally expected in the end? That’s so horrible to me, which even could make me absolutely hopeless. Moreover, I wrote a letter to that school to ask some questions, and also wish them to reply as soon as possible. However, till then, I am still in anxiety, looking forward their answers. Sometimes I always think that in case of losing my all chances to go with my Leonidas, would I become a powerless, helpless burden on everyone around me? I intended to give him a call to pour out my worries in that night but he was tied up with his works. My heart was as cold as the night outside, so bitter cold just like breaking my wings, and never filed into sky. Lying in the bed, and gazing my mobile expecting a warm message from him. Just as I anticipated, later, words were showing on my phone: "babe, I know it is so hard to you to do these without me, but all our doings are worthy, for our future, right? Good sleep my babe, blow you a kiss. Never worried, because you have me by your side forever!" A warm was flowing through my eyes and then into my heart. Having his care and encouragement, I would never be afraid anymore. I miss you Leonidas, I need your help. You are my power I strive it for...

Parent's Wish 2006-11-04 19:37

I went to see my grandmother with dad today. She looks healthy and happy for our coming. What made me so lucky was that I came across my brother and his GF while in grandmother’s house. This was the first time to see my brother since he began to be quite busy with his job and also is my first time to see his GF since I heart he had been in love. That’s why I said so lucky I am just now. She is a cicerone, who is slender and a good temperament. Unluckily, they got to go to join their buddy’s party soon when I just arrived there. Seeing their sweet back, my grandmother showed up her sweet smile on her face. At that happiest moment, I was suddenly aware, in fact, being our parents or eldership, which more than anything in the world, only we are happy whatever we are or we will be, they are happy. Exactly, nothing can replace their happiness but only their baby’s safety, health, as well as the respect, which might be the spirit of holding the traditional virtues of Chinese over 5000 years.

Memories's Back 2006-11-03 15:53

I met lulu who was one of my best friends in uni and went home just now. She seemed to be slimmer than ever, and in all there were so many big changes on her. I just heart that she resigned her job few months ago because she sensed so unbearable everyday from her boss. The more important is that she is a virtuous wife to arrange their daily life. No wonder she looks a little bit gaunt but more sweet and womanlike than ever. How beautiful and flowery the girl is and how lucky and happy her hubby when I saw their photos in the wedding. I could never imagine what she would be after getting marriage because her childlike character has always been flushing into my mind. We were talking and laughing about our snippets from dorm life, classes, martial training to every friend’s trifles, so that we almost forgot the time. I just wanna say good to see her again, and so happy to hear of her everything great. Wish them forever! God bless them forever!

Never Say Goodbye 2006-11-02 17:02

Everything seemed to be better than what we thought. Today is the first day since l leaved from Xiamen, either went far away from my babe Leonidas. Well, I feel good, just kinda empty without him and without anything I ever experienced there with him. I know I must be careful to myself and either does him. I miss those guys there, Wong, Amoy Sea, Cutey, ChenChenZhu, who are so funny and unforgotten to me. Being with them had me warm and touched every day. I never forgot yesterday, ChenChenZhu came to see me off with my babe in airport. To be honest, although I controlled my emotion, with their backs turned, tears run down on my face. After all, we had so many so many sweet snippets of life there. I love them; I love this beautiful place where it holds my all memories. When will I go back there and when will I embrace them again, I have been looking forward that day...Dears, we don’t be afraid the separation today, because in God’s cherish, we never say goodbye.

This is Love 2006-10-31 18:56

I can’t believe life’s so complex. When I just wanna sit here and watch you undress. This is love that I’m feeling. Does it have to be a life full of dread? I want to chase you round the table; I wanna touch your head. This is love that I’m feeling. I can’t believe that the axis turns on suffering. When you taste so good, I can’t believe that the axis turns on suffering. While my head burns. This is love that I’m feeling. Even in the summer, even in the spring. You can never get too much of a wonderful thing. You’re the only story that I never told. You’re my dirty little secret, want to keep you so. Come on out, come on over, help me forget. Keep the walls from falling on me, tumbling in - This is love that I’m feeling It’s my favorite song made by P.J Harvey...Stories from the City, Stories from the Sea.

It passed 2006-10-31 15:38

My Leonidas got a fever these days due to diarrhea, but had already gotten over soon under my care. Fortunately, it just happened before I leave from here. Sometimes, to be honest, I really worry him being alone to live by himself. I know he does need me as deep as I do. I will go back home tomorrow and I don’t know how I can express my feeling at this moment. Although I am clear we will be detached in different place just only for two more months, I miss him so much. I have been lived here with him for almost six months, which can be seen to establish a solid foundation for our future. Don’t come to see me off tomorrow, baby, waiting for you... Take care yourself...

Relieved 2006-10-29 12:12

We went to Fuqing to meet Ann yesterday. In the morning we set off at almost 6.am to take the long-distant bus. We thought anything probably happened on the road and were much afraid something out of our expectation. After arriving in Fuqing, we found where she lives, without her admission, by Leonidas’s memory he had been there many years ago and recklessly visited her family. Although we were clear that our act was quite wrong, even unprincipled, she understood us anymore. In the beginning of our talk with Ann, we didn’t dare to mention her feeling and what she eventually thought about their break-up because of her notionate character on this problem. You know, we do not give her any pression to ask her if she surely don’t wanna to tell something on her own initiative. But lastly, she talked about why so sad and disappointed to that boy. "We are in different world, and so many aspects lead to our final separation...you know, as a girl, in fact, I don’t care everything whatever the pressure from family, or the financial situation, if you love me, you are good enough to me, that’s all, I am not afraid any more...besides, about my dad, I love him. When he heard this thing, he couldn’t sleep over whole night. He ever asked me, "My baby, can you live alone out of your family? If you live with that boy, would I meet you as usual as ever...?” At this moment, tears ran down on her face but soon she controlled her emotion. Anyway, she said she appreciated us to see her, yet couldn’t love this boy any more.

In our backhaul, we recollected her words, and were a little pity that things were end in this magical way. Till then only thing we are gratified that Ann is getting more mature toward further difficulties. God bless her, God bless that boy to be happy in the future...

A dramatic experience 2006-10-27 12:05

Anything will be unpredictable, this is absolutely right. Just now I came through a problem in person, so dramatic. A Leonidas’s boddy has been so frustrated these days due to the saying-goodbye with his GF. Ann is a beautiful girl, they loved each other and sweared to be together forever. Yet he never thought of that his love would leave him alone one day and might not be back into his heart. In the beginning, we didn’t know what had happened except for the little pity for their break-up. Till then, I finally understand why he loves her so much. He had been gotten away by Ann from once sorrow on his ex-girlfriend. They were ever happy and sweet, talked about their marriage in near future and even how many children they might have. Nevertheless, such the happy life doesn’t last for a long time. The boy’s oversight and carelessness to her love were result to their separation. "It’s not end, don’t give up guy." we encouraged him again and again...Surely, things won’t be over, I meant it...Therefore, just got a calling from the boy, he said he would relocate his love and let us be a messenger to send a letter to the girl’s father. That’s crazy, but we all understand his heart. To me, it’s the first time I have to do that for others, like an adventure. Be brave, Sylvia, you can make it, for his will. Here, I just want to tell that boy, good luck, everything will be OK, everything goes in what you wish.. God bless you...God bless us who fill with warm love in our heart...

Where am I 2006-10-26 17:20

Writting the recom for my dear Leonidas, because he is so busy with his experiment. I am so confused why he gives such the important thing to me who is a poor-language girl...Time by time, day by day... Life is like a shuttle, thus it’s more closer-and-closer between dream and us...I am just struggling in the choice of to be a good player or not to be while stand in front of such the complicated society, because I still have an ambitious dream. Yet, am I all ready? Am I excellent enough? Will God look at me and bless me to get my all wish? Maybe...I can only think like that. Well only one I figure it out that doing anything by myself have me more mature to be a good competitor in this arena of life. I am what I was, all the time, never change, be my Sylvia.

Headache 2006-10-25 11:07

Been having a headache for a long time, it might be caused in last ride bicycle with friends. Well, you know, what I was much more afraid was something happened with my headache for no reason... No wonder I am unwell these days, next week...I really don’t want to be in that day. I will miss you, no, I am missing you at this moment...Never mind, I told myself, just went into the cold and got a chill...

Last few days 2006-10-20 10:29

will be back to my home Beijing, I will live my dear hubby, just for a while, Here is my sweet memory forever, Here has so many friends, so many experiences, Life is like song worth singing, through which I sing my life; life of hesitation, frustration,pain, happiness, passion, memory, future, and so forth. Remember me all guys here, I will be right back...

I wish 2006-10-19 21:42

It’s the twelfth version my PS being revised, I really crazy for that. When will it be over, I’m waiting for...I’m looking for...

Fighting! ~ 2006-10-17 15:20

Just finished PS, so hard and tired to me, but still strive it for...Only thing I have my appreciation is that so many friends are supporting me and helping me to revise my paper. Thanks for their generous favor! ~

Wow~what a meal! 2006-10-15 22:40

We were invited to have a wonderful meal tonight, BBQ, and we were all overfulling but so happy. Although the plan I intended to get my weight down was over-arranged, I felt so happy so many friends around me in the last few days here. I could not image my life without them; I could not fancy my world without all I look for........

How wonderful the life is, 2006-10-14 09:34

I was on the road with my hubby and talked something happily, and then he suddenly
mentioned marriage, "Let’s tie the knot", he said. I know this was not the first time he thought that, but whenever we remember, we still felt sweet and happy. The way we ever leap together was so bumpy. We are, now, exactly, respect and even love each other. I am here with you; I will be here with you forever.