Great tension

I felt bad for Eva after I met her in my recital room, because she told me how she was so under the huge pressure from Irena who kept asking her to practice more and more when she even got sick and when she started to realize that she might not be able to handle it as good as Irena expected, although she definitely made her better on performance. Poor Eva! She would have her last piano lesson with her before go back to German to have a long break. I guess this was the last time seeing her today.

I don’t mean that I just want to tell this story, instead, I am getting worried about myself. If I was Eva, would I be capable to deal with this problem so I can make the further progress? Anyway, I made my decision, after knowing how harder it might be in the following days, that I would never give that up, that I would wash everything down by my own. God help me!

Back to London

Taking almost 15 hours to London, I was so exhausted. You never realized and figured out how life was going on before it really happened, like what I had in Beijing this time, which I think was the most wonderful time ever.

Sorry my dear mom and dad that I didn’t spend much time to be with you as long as I promised before; Sorry my dear friends whom I didn’t chat with this time that I should have had even a short moment to tell you that how much I was appreciated to have you; And sorry you that I should have told you that I wanted to be with you every moment, enjoying music we both love, and enjoying you telling me that you have me in your life. I am gonna miss everything in Beijing, lovely you and my home.